Too Many Lists

So yup. No post last week. Sorry about that (as if anyone even noticed). Moving on.

I like lists. There's some part of me that organizes anything and everything. Give me a packet of Skittles, you'll probably find me sorting them by color, making the numbers of colors even, and eliminating the deformed ones first because I have issues THAT BAD. That's just another one of my OCD things.

Lists just seem so... Easy to read to me. Simple. I have a ton of lists I haven't gotten to writing down anywhere, so I just decided to take my chance now.

Favorite words:

• Ebony
• Iridescant
• Lullabies
• Reverie
• Nostalgia (it always reminds me of noses)
• Always
• Wonderstruck (it's in a song I like, therefore, it is a word)
• Wondrified (I made it up, so what?)
• Enchanted
• Forever
• Symphony
• Euphony
• Dawn
• Swim
• Ebb
• You
• Us
• Dream
• Heart
• Awkward
• Lovely
• Everywhere
• Him
• Her
• He
• She
• Love

Places I want to visit:

• Scotland and/or Ireland
• Salar de Uyuni
• A black hole
• Mars
• Alaska in northern lights season
• The Palm Islands and the Burj Al Arab

Bad habits I have:

• Biting my nails
• Getting upset too easily
• Being horrible to the people I love
• Making too many lists
• Crying for no reason
• Laziness in general

Irrational desires that probably will never happen:

• Fly. Actually fly. Not skydive or bungee jump. Fly.
• Meet Adam Young
• Publish a novel
• Be inspirational
• Be told I'm beautiful by someone that really means it
• Have a first love that loves back (it's personal, stupid, and weird, but true)

Sad songs:

• Vanilla Twilight by Owl City
• Silhouettes by Swimming With Dolphins
• Brielle by Sky Sailing
• Wherever You Are (Winnie the Pooh version)
• I Live Alone by Sky Sailing
• Lonely Lullabye by Owl City

Fears:

• Rejection of any kind
• Ants
• Not being able to move
• Being underwater (or at least my eyes or nose underwater)
• What I'll become

Personality disorders I have too many symptoms of to ignore:

• Avoidant
• Schizotypal
• Dependant
• Obsessive-Compulsive

Things I'll never forget:

• How lonely I felt when I couldn't sleep that night
• When he hugged me for the first time
• When the pastor called out to me: "You don't have to be alone"
• My father's stubble on my face when he kissed me goodnight
• The panic and happiness when I got baptized
• The feeling of him when he slept on my shoulder
• His face when he broke down right in front of me